it's a new beginning

my heart goes up,
my heart goes down.
I catch myself looking at him, noticing how mauch he's looking at her.
I try to get his attention, only to realise that his mind is with her.
tis not the first time, nor the second.
this is the third time I'm falling for Mr.Bear.
I hate this... this feeling i get whenever i feel sad.
why do i have to be so weak.
it took me plenty of time to find strength to move on and be filial

why does that hurt so much
i"m always the one person that never fits in.
the one person that is never really accepted
that one person who is always different
the one person who never is known
the one person without love
the one person with all the hurt
the one person who never gets what she wants
the one person who always cries in silence
the one person with a fake smile plastered on her face
the one person seeking love but never getting any
the one person without a father
the one person with all her hurt uncared for
the one person who always had her dearest things snatched away
the one person
who will never find love or comfort
or at least not now or in the near future
I'm so very tired of pretending
tired of being strong
i just want to feel his strong arms embrace me
and cry my heart out