So much yet so little♥

Hellos! here again...
had a pretty much depressing week.
I've thought about making one private blog but I'm not too sure yet.
School is fine. PJY finally came back. I miss BHPS alr although I just went back last week. Lately, I feel real lonely. I WANT A BOYFRIEND!! Somebody! Ask me out! LOLs, I know i know Ryan a.k.a Thadar,I promised that i won't say this but you said as PM so blog is alright i guess.
Maen is a fucking jerk la, If u're reading this guy, no offense. He always never keep his promises like fuck. ok la, he never ignore me atleast.
Dunno what to say la. Had a bad week. I wanna join guitar club. I wanna rebond my hair again. maybe do extension but never mind, too trouble some.
And my MOM confiscated my hong bao money cause i came home very late.
That's so unfair, almost 200 dollars. Feel like committing suicide man...
I'm so lonely I can die. Mala and whoever said that being single is the best, I dun believe you. It's a complete lie...
Have plenty of HW this week and I had plenty of HW from my myanmar tution too!
I'm so tired man, I know i know.. I'm just complaining...
I'm so over Maen, Sky and Kg. Uh uh uh... nono, I ain't lying to myself.
And and and I know I'm sad and when u're sad, u're not supposed to be hyper still when u're down but I can't help it! i think I'll go crazy If i don't jump about every day. I know! It's a turn off and me being loud is even worse... I'm just the kind of girl every guy wants to get away from... Sigh... anyways good luck to me.
Bye! Remember, TAG ME SO I WON'T GO CRAZY! hahahs... :D
PS: I like skinny guys better

Home not sweet home♥

ok!
Today stay at home but not slacking ...
can u believe? I slept till 7 plus cause light too strong in the room..
then use com, try to sleep. but can't so i called Maen and disturb him la...
He still sleeping... hahaha... then he keep saying talk to you later,
Then i was like,just wake up la.... then he said he need to sleep..
Then I said ok... then go toilet and say prayers( I know weird)
Then use com again... Chat with Ryan and then off com, Go talk to maen again...
He was still sleeping... Then I made him wake up, I ask him to get up then he say alr.
Then I ask him what he's doing and he was saying, I'm on the bed, lying...
hahaha, he said, no energy to hold phone so he put speaker cause i ask him go brush teeth cause later his phone smell..
lol. Then my teacher came and I studied till 5 then I go bathe Then I sneak off to call sky and now blog,
My mom is going to kill me so I gotta go!

Wicked in a Twisted way♥

hey guys!
ok sry , so long neva update.
I met my darlings today and I feel like I've shrunk though I've grown 3 cm, ok that's an improvement. AND JODI I"M SO SORRY!!! I really did try to find u but i was sitting between the sec3s and i dun even noe where is my class or where are sec2s,
I'm so sorry!!!. ok today was really fun,like fun!
Mala came late but i was really trying to make the rest laugh with my cacat-ness,
I did work, Abit. Anyways, I feel like I'm dangerously falling in love with someone although i'm not sure! haha lols!
I hope so much he'll fall for me too!!!

Gossip time♥

hello!
Yes, I'm back from camp!!!!!
haha.. I wish Jodi was there lol....
never mind la.. her sister very sick lol..
330 she going to be on the way alr but she gotta send her sis to clinic...
I wander if she's ok lol...
ok back to the topic!
MAN CAMP WAS SO FUN!!!!
The trainers are also very nice!
Got handsome ones you know?!
hahaha... Marcus was calling himself handsome la, sexy la, super cute la..
hahaha but he is handsome.. :D
JK(Jing Kai) was the nicest of all!!! He was our trainer! We all bully him like that hahahahah......
actually i was very stupid la. I took Taxi to school but took mrt from school to home.
DUMB RIGHT?! Very heavy lor...
thr first day we had ice breaking and song session... very fun lor...
I , Katherine and Serene was in the same group.. lol very fun lor!
Katherine and I were so hyper and Serene was like so quiet..
haha she so cute la... Oh ya, Sebester ask for her number lae, but she only give her msn but he very what lae , go and see my book.
ok , back to the track. we had dinner b4 song session and then had supper , but i didn't eat. Then go shower.
Oh ya, The Raymond guy was like"If you all keep talking, I'll cut your shower time!"
WTF right?
I slept between Charline and Limin.
Oh ya, on the 1st day, we saw this cute guy. his name is Hwa jie( Flower Sister )
hahaha.. the name damn funny for a handsome guy la...
hahaha .. and Limin was like " Hwa Jie is mine ok? Don't u dare steal him"
lol! hahaaha she so cute... We slept at abt 1 plus la...
next day I woke up at 5 , my boi clock. Wake everybody up cause i dunno the time and then we all were early. O ya, The malay girls up stairs were so noisy we all cannot sleep...
They scream and shout and laugh like it's her grandfather's camp site like that..
FUCK right? and then next day we ate breakfast and had to do area clearing, ab-sailing, Rock climbing and this thing, you have to climb up to this very high pole and you have to walk on these long logs without holding onto anything. scary.
Then had lunch and went for dragon boating. Fun Sia. Got second position cause they all cheat.
Next, Shower and dinner.
Went for night hike .
We were suppose to walk in a group forming a straight line without using torch light in a jungle. Not actually jungle la. It's a very small one.
Very creepy you know.
Then when we reach the field, the scenery was vwry Shiok.
Lots of stars and can see the sky very clearly.
The breeze was mesmerizing... but very cold.
Later, I became a human pillow. Katherine and serene on my hand, Jing fang on my belly and Shina on my thigh.
I got warmer la. Their head so warm. Went back, ate super and slept.
Next day, breakfast, Area cleaning then Bukit Timah Hike.
Very fun lor!A lot of time Slip la but still fun and very very tiring...
Next, OUTDOOR COOKING! So shit la. Made Meggy Mee successfully . But others were having NASI BRANI AND CHICKEN DRUMSTICK WITH CURRY!!!!
later went for challenge pole, The trainer trick us , say never do that cannot do flying fox but in the end, got no time.
Challenge pole was also fun la. Climb onto very high pole and try to jump and catch the handle that is about 170 cm away from you. Scary abit la...next was team building but we discuss abt the presentation item for the camp fire. Our group was not very cooperative. Cristen got very pissed off and of course me.
Oh ya, without knowing I took charge of the whole thing lol...
Natural talent lor... hahahaha.. JK jk jk.
Shower time was cut off. No shower b4 camp fire.
Nexty we had camp fire. b4 that we got our camp T. Nice la. Not bad. I scream so loud until the trhoat very pain.. Oh ya.. We did some butt shaking. the trainer Marcus was like saying" Repeat after me!" Then we all did and then he said " Do what I do!"
then started shaking hiss butt and whole body... hahahahaha ... very funny lor... then teachers also must do! hahahaha.. Mr V. was really shaking hiss butt!!!!
hahaha very funny lor.... We all also sand this
Marcus: Baby Baby I love you.
Us: Alibaba~
Marcus:Baby baby can't you see?
Us:Pinobelope~
Marcus: Baby baby ( something something)
Us. Cinderella
Then malay version.
Next,
Marcus: Bao bei, tong si jai na li?
Us, Wo pu Ji thao.
Marcus: bao bei, bao bei wo ai ni.
Us: ni han hao xiao.
marcus: bao bei, thong si bu zhai la.
Us: Ni kai wan xioa.
lol, Radom!
after presenting our item, we had supper then slept.
Next woke at 6 30.
Had morning stretching game then had breakfast then area cleaning. found under wear and shorts and track pants in the boys dorm.
Then final debrief then see who won and home sweet home!!!
Lol... I carried my heavy bag all the way... very tired. bought Mac take away and now blog to update :D.
Bye!~ ♥

A smile broken yet so perfect

sigh...
really, I don't know what's making me feel all depressed. . .
But the problem is i dun even know why..
and i'm missing him! all of a sudden.. my 1st eva boyfriend..
and that's so sad...
i just...i ..dunno how to explain it..
it just make me so sad...
i miss his embraces...
and his touch, his laughter, his lame jokes and every single little thing abt him...
and the way he made me feel so special...
I mean no one, ok, no one ever made feel that way before...
not even my own family i'm sad to say...
And i feel that I'm returning to the old sad may with a completely perfect smile....
a smile that is the pretense for covering up her misery and sadness and loneliness...
sometimes I wander if i ever will meet someone like him again..
Had I made the wrong choice?
I don't know and I'm sure I don't like regretting...
ok... I know no one's gonnaread this blog, that's why this is like a special place for me.. though I hope someone would... bother to care abt me or my blog...
gd night and sweet dreams...

It's so obvious♥

It's so obvious alotta ppl like him♥

Talk abt unfairness♥

Ok.. I've got lots to complain.
1stly, no body I love so far is talking to me.
2nd, I dun really like my new class... feel like i'm the only one making them laugh..\
3rd, I'm v. v. v. angry ,with Jackson especially.
4th, I'm broke.
5th, I'm very lonely.
6th, I just ran outta material to read.
7th, I miss him although I'm not sure which one.
Ok i confess, I'm not too sure of my feelings. but I still miss him, i mean them.
and allota more u wouldn't wantta hear.
And yes, today is just not my day.
I miss Mala and all. Diana, I certainly cannot get u and Mala and wiwi too.
Can't believe u guys are making me feel like this. :(
but yes I'm so lonely I'll be happy if I get a boyfriend as soon as possible, doesn't matter if I love him or not.
I just seriously need some... warmth and company...
Yes, That's how desperate i am but no, My standards are not lowering any bit.
Sch sucks now. I totally miss my old class. and old school and him...
I wish I just could talk.. you know.. Ok I talked too much..
Gd-bye.♥
Ps: I love you♥

not to regret

Aiyo,
First day of school, alr forgot to bring H.W
And got caught by teacher abt my skirt being too short.
lol! I mean like, Do that know the meaning of too long?!
hahax.. I met my new friends to day ..
actually i woke up at 5 am cux Jodi ask me to wait in front of school gate at 6 50 and she was late la. as always...
then went to parade square, got scolded.
abt my nails and my skirt lol.. i trim my nails last night but only one hand..
haha.. talk abt wierd.. then wnet to class . Mrs. Eng is really nice!
haha.. I'm in Miss Joanna Lee's class again..
seems like I'm the only one that is hyper active again.. I mean i used to have Justin that is also hyper, kinda seems sad...
I'm now officially Physics Rep.
lol.. Played this Ice breaking game and I realized that the clas has a lotta ppl with very very similar names.. lol..
Samuel is another Denis except that he's not emo.
Shawn is really nice la.. I think her name is Qingyang.. aiyo, can't rmb la..
I't always my prob every new year.. lol..
all the sec 1s are like kiddos. and i even saw a girl that looks like kinder garden kid!
lol, She's so adorable! haha.. anyways, i'm going away this weekend so,see you next week.
Pee Ass: I hate this Aaron guy.