never thought it would happen

sigh, I'm going to forget about this and going to be happy.
I ain't gonna let my mom down again with this kind of problem.
I shall be happy and cheerful. (:
i won't and I won't ever make such mistakes ever again.
I feel so fucking pathetic . This has never happened to me before.
I shall learn my lesson. they can scold me for all they want and judge me for all they want.
because i know who i really am. I did not flirt and i would never do such a thing to come between a couple. Those who know me will know and i believe i can go through it. people think they know me so well, let them.
to think i thought you were my friend, i had to learn this in a harsh way

heh, gosh... make up stories?
what stories am i making huh?
cb, i ugly so what ? I'm born like that right?
see me? better not waste my time.
ppl want to straighten hair or not your problem ah?
I bother you and maen? That is history.
I gave the tag like more than a month ago and that was the last, go check the date la you.
I erased you guys out of my mind and then you come find problem with me.
if you are so confident then why bother la please?
dun waste your time. i am afraid this"ugly" girl can only give you answers but when it comes to you trusting your bf, that's another one.
omg, why did i even think that you guys are even good friends.
i came between you? how the fuck did this "ugly girl" do that?
think you great right ? then think yourself la. dun come and give me this crap
i wanted to drop this subject and even apologize but not any more!
fine, we meet up tuesday and end it there.
my life isn't just about you. so, stop wasting my time because i long erased you from my mind!

Oh tell me then?
who started this and who is now getting angry?
what the fuck did i do to make your relationship with maen go bad?
HUH?! tell me la if u're so smart.
who called me bitch first huh?
say lah!
see me soon>? oh please.
going to find your "friends" to come find me?
heh, if you want to say you got guts then come find me by yourself la.
if i cared then i would have checked what's your name and check the spelling c-o-r-r-e-c-t-l-y.
(: if you say he dun care abt me, then why bother scolding me>?
oh ya, i bother ppl, so what? your problem ah?
MY personality is like that. at least i dun go around scolding people for the wrong reasons.
i seriously cannot think how you got the conclusion and how you got him to break off our friendship
and how you can have the right mind to scold me for what i didn't do wrong.
and if u're so hurt by me typing your name wrongly then go to his arms and complain about me lah!
SEE IF I CARE!

Heh!
She say I bitch about her? For your info, Esther Chan, I wasn't bitching about you or had a thought about bitching about you but now that you said it this way, I really feel like doing it but I aint so lowly


so here's what you said

Some bitch just can't stop bitching about me.

When the reason for her to bitch is so unreasonable. Think about it, who is willing to let some girl who I don't like, as well as MY boyfriend. To keep on texting him and msn, with words to pissed you off like I miss you blah blah blah. Meet up with each other, you were trying hardly, pathetically to flirt with him, treating me like some kind of invisibe person. I thought I made it clearly that I told you to fuck off? So why are you still using some nickname that you think I DONT KNOW continue Tagging him with word like I miss you? Please stop being pathetic, the possibility is amost 0 to let you this kind of girl ( referring to her mentally and physically) affect our relationship after 7 months. you think you bitch about me I know nothing. Funny ah you

I don't care if you didn't like me, As if I CARE. I text and msn with him because I miss him as a GOOD FRIEND. it's you who is mistaking me and my feelings for him. It's you who think that I like him. FUCK YOU. We were friends for 4 fucking years and were good friends for 2 god damn years. and you think it's so great that you guys are together for 7 months. And i didn't flirt with him. if you call what ever I did to tease him as flirting then why not observe me when i really do flirt, you cockeyed girl. You call me a bitch but what are you? heh, I han't got any hard feelings towards you untill i saw your post. And meeting up was his idea NOT MINE. calling me and saying Esther dun wan talk to me and blah blah blah. That's why i had to meet himl. gosh, i never thought about coming between you guys and now you say it such a way, fuck you, that's all i want to say. and i dun care if you come find me. See if i pee in my pants. Got guts come see me face to face. See who's the real coward. BITCH! I'm guessing Maen will bve angry if he sees this but i dun give a shit any more. Heh!

when the stakes are high

Here are the pics for friday!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D

surrounded by girls :D:D:D:D
It's a little late but HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR ONG JING ZHI :D:D:D:D:D
lastly, I miss PJ :S

depite my attempts;

I don;t know why anymore.
I feel abandoned.Not acknowledged
I feel pathetic . sigh, i think i've said this countless times....
I want to know how it feels to be wanted.
I wanted to be appreciated...
I just want some warmth, is that wrong of me?


Tears fell from my eyes like rain drops....
Will you lay your eyes on me for once?
My endurance is growing thin....
save my sanity... let me off this pain..

no he doesn;t

It's End of Year.
DANG! I haven't study, ohhhhhhhhh shit
I wanna kill myself.
my momma is gonna ship me back if I fail any.
Oh boy oh boy oh boy.
i need to scream out loud.ok, so here i go
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok, done.
yes yes, pathetic.
but common! I'm stressed.
Mrs Hariz said that I'm under performing .
DANG DANG DANG, SHIT SHIT SHIT
I feel so shitty
fcuk that. nc cb.
sigh.... I hope that someone would give me more attention
i feel like a kid, damn .