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1.Beer:
good to enjoy
2.Food:
delicious
3.Relationships:
short
4.Your crush:
many
5.Power Rangers:
once upon a time
6.Life:
live it
7.The President:
he rules
8.Yummy:
him
9.Cars:
fast and stylish
10.Movies:
My food
11.Halloween:
when is it?
12.Sex:
appetizer
13.Religion:
Buddha
14.Hate:
to be alone
15.Fear:
loneliness
16.Marriage:
trust.
17.Blondes:
crazy
18.Slippers:
slippers
19.Shoes:
pumps
20.Asians:
rocks
21.Pass time:
day dream
22.One night stand:
count for me
23.Cell phone:
broken
24.Smoke:
bad for health
25.Fantasy:
last long and be rich
26.College:
Hunks
27.High school life:
too much hw
28.Pyjamas:
silk
29.Stars:
beautiful
30.Center:
of attention.
31.Alcohol:
feel good
32.The word love:
is a big word
33.Friends:
plenty
34.Money:
makeover
35.Heartache:
Him
36.Time:
3 32 pm
37.Divorce:
Hope it doen't happen
38.Dogs:
scary
39.Undies:
panties
40.Parents:
don't know everything
41.Babies:
f-ing adorable
42.Ex:
it's history
43.Song:
First Love
44.Colour:
Red & blue
45.Weddings:
too much hassle
46.Pizza:
cheese! Hawaiian!
47.Hangout:
playground; movie theater
48.Rest:
in bed
49.Goal:
to get rich
50.Inspiration:
gone

I'm going to do sth that I'm gonna regret.
I hope what ever comes out of it is good.
I don't have a life. I live like a zombie, listening to my mom. doing whatever she wants me to.
I wanted some comfort, I searched for it.
I needed shelter, I looked for it.
I needed love, I tried my best trying to find it.
But what I found was, hurt, abuse and pain.
I can't help but feel insignificant.


I miss him no matter how I try not to.
I love him no matter how I try to forget loving him.
Memories always come flashing back and haunt me.
What have I done? Why did I make those mistakes?
How should I carry on? How can I get back my innocence?

Cut my hair,
Shall explain next time what went wrong (:

I realise that people love to surprise each other.
And I was not amazed by the fact that I'm not loved.
It has always been this way.
It will change,sometime in the future, just a matter of whether it will change before I die or after I die.
Yeah, I admit I can't throw my love away from him like trash.
No,I'm not talking about my ex.
He's just someone I know and someone you may know.
hahah, anyway, if you see me with 2 big rings under my eye, don't be surprised..
Yup, I didn't sleep. It helps because I don't have to wake up.
That means I won't be late for school.
I know I know, you probably thinks I'm wierd but yeah.
it's a fact. Can't change that.
I'm not going to ignore him because it doesn't change anything.

I understand that this is the turning point for me.
I know I have pushed my luck.
I know I need to act now and do it fast.
But I've lost my motivation for quite some time.
And motivation is everything that I will need now.
I don't want to live a zombie life.
I realise that I have no one to turn to.
I lost that one because he's too occupied with his Girlfriend.
I do have some people I could turn to if I want to put my trust in them.
But I can't bring myself to do ir because they don't trust me.
I don't see things the way many people do.
So sometimes,it's hard for me to agree with everyone.
I also realised that I look for him every single second that I'm nt aware that I'm searching for him.
I'm a failure and I don't really have much experience to deal with it.
I'm thankful to those who tried to cheer me up today and those who did.
And thanks shermain and Shawn, for keeping me distracted. (:
Thx Limmin and XingLing (:
Thx Jing Ying (:

LEE MIN HO!!!!! OMG he's so hot.
hahahah, so adorable....
sighhhhhhh, I'm so in love.
hahahaha :D



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I love this pic.
oh ya, Lee Min Ho doesn't know how to cry properly :P

Friends are like Bras, Close to heart and give support

Hahahahaha, I feel good, nanananana.
XD XD XD XD, I feel so much better now.
aiyo, so tired after going shopping
hahaha, ate with XiaoMin at pizza hut today :D
hahahaha, then met diana and went to Bugis.
Bought stockings there.
She was like complaining " can i sit?"
hahahaha, so cute.
Nth much too say, so I'm gonna waste my time watching Boys over flowers !!!

I looked like that in the morning when i went to school.
Didn't get a wink of sleep yesterday cuz i had runs.
I paid a visit to the toilet every 5 mins.
It sucked.
Gosh it had been years since i had diarrhea.
I feel like vomiting now cuz i just ate my medicine.
Argh! i feel so weak.
Sigh, have mercy my dear bacteria. I can't take another day of diarrhea.
I rather fall sick than this.
Gosh! I hate this!

Today kinda sucked.
Kinda have a cold.
I was so sleepy...
Sigh, Back to being single!
hahaha :):):)

So many many things have happened.
May May May. . .
You simply suck,
I don't like being alone at all.
Recently, no not recently.
It's been quite a while that I'm being ignored by many many people.
I feel insignificant.
I feel fake.
I feel like I have no one.
I just have to live with it.
I keep surprising myself.
I keep doing the unexpected.
I can't understand why I'm being this way.
Why can't I stop acting like everything is fine when it's not.
Why can't I solve my own problem before solving other's?
I'm starting to hate myself.
I should meet someone that can make me feel special and secure.
I hope I will. I'm sure I will, someday in future.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I"M GROWING TRIPLE EYELID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate it. looks so wierd. ):
sigh...
I got nth to say today.
Just the triple eyelid thing XD

I don't want me to be just another girl.
I don't want us to be just another story.
I can see that you ain't focusing on me.
I dun wanna think abt this.


Today is just another typical day.
I want to get away from this stupid stuck up life.
I want to escape from reality.
I want to feel special.
All I can feel now is lust.
Everyone's the same,
guys, guys , guys.
even you are like that.
I just want to feel secure for once in my lifetime.
I have felt special but never secure.
I always wander, "do you do this with other girls too?"
hahaha, I know my looks aren't that special.
sigh. . . I can't help it.
I'm feeling this way again.
It's ok.
Since it's this way.
I'll live my life in a carefree way.
I won't fail to laugh again.
even in your presence.
ok, I guess I am paranoid,
I had this dream of you and her,
walking hand in hand.
It tormented me.
but , hahaha, I waved and smiled at you although tears are sliding down my cheeks.
I really am thinking too much.

I SO FRAGGING WANT TO SCREAM!!!
my heart out so that I dun have to breathe anymore.
so that I dun have to face my life in misery.
Mom, can you be more realistic and see the world in the way we youngsters see?
You want your privacy, I gave you.
I want my privacy, you don't want to let me have.
Is that fair?
I know life is not fair but I'm sure you don't want grandma to know abt some stuffs right?
what is your problem?
I understand you want things for my best.
but you have to understand that I want to little peace.
A place to escape reality.
I don't have anything and can you don't take away the little space I have now?
Can you don't take away the few friends I have now?
Mom, you don't understand, You don't

lol. . .
I kana caught by mommy. . .
sigh....
she still want to check...

I'm such a push over.
I hate it when I can't say "No"
sigh, I'm going to my private blog to write now. bye bye

Finally

Ok, after so long I'm going to update!
I had fun last week when I met Maen and Esther!
haha, Maen was like, "don't talk like gangster can or not?"
haha, I was like, "why not?"
lol, Esther and i were ganging up on him.
we were like teasing him and he was like, "this is the last time i'm gonna let u 2 see each other"
hahaha, so funny, at first we were at BHPS
We were criticizing the new uniform
haha, we were saying "I'll never say this is my sch again"
hahaha, then we went to novena Square and sat at KFC.
They were lovey dovey!
lol, very sian lae.
haha, Sch went on as usual.
Yesterday I went to causeway to study with Catherine and Huang Leng!
I saw Xuan Wei there, but I didn't call him cuz forgot his name XD
haha, next week is MYE alr.
must study hard.
I haven't study a single thing!
Bye!
Love u readers!