it's a new beginning

I don't want me to be just another girl.
I don't want us to be just another story.
I can see that you ain't focusing on me.
I dun wanna think abt this.


Today is just another typical day.
I want to get away from this stupid stuck up life.
I want to escape from reality.
I want to feel special.
All I can feel now is lust.
Everyone's the same,
guys, guys , guys.
even you are like that.
I just want to feel secure for once in my lifetime.
I have felt special but never secure.
I always wander, "do you do this with other girls too?"
hahaha, I know my looks aren't that special.
sigh. . . I can't help it.
I'm feeling this way again.
It's ok.
Since it's this way.
I'll live my life in a carefree way.
I won't fail to laugh again.
even in your presence.
ok, I guess I am paranoid,
I had this dream of you and her,
walking hand in hand.
It tormented me.
but , hahaha, I waved and smiled at you although tears are sliding down my cheeks.
I really am thinking too much.