it's a new beginning

I'm going to do sth that I'm gonna regret.
I hope what ever comes out of it is good.
I don't have a life. I live like a zombie, listening to my mom. doing whatever she wants me to.
I wanted some comfort, I searched for it.
I needed shelter, I looked for it.
I needed love, I tried my best trying to find it.
But what I found was, hurt, abuse and pain.
I can't help but feel insignificant.


I miss him no matter how I try not to.
I love him no matter how I try to forget loving him.
Memories always come flashing back and haunt me.
What have I done? Why did I make those mistakes?
How should I carry on? How can I get back my innocence?