it's a new beginning

So many many things have happened.
May May May. . .
You simply suck,
I don't like being alone at all.
Recently, no not recently.
It's been quite a while that I'm being ignored by many many people.
I feel insignificant.
I feel fake.
I feel like I have no one.
I just have to live with it.
I keep surprising myself.
I keep doing the unexpected.
I can't understand why I'm being this way.
Why can't I stop acting like everything is fine when it's not.
Why can't I solve my own problem before solving other's?
I'm starting to hate myself.
I should meet someone that can make me feel special and secure.
I hope I will. I'm sure I will, someday in future.