it's a new beginning

I understand that this is the turning point for me.
I know I have pushed my luck.
I know I need to act now and do it fast.
But I've lost my motivation for quite some time.
And motivation is everything that I will need now.
I don't want to live a zombie life.
I realise that I have no one to turn to.
I lost that one because he's too occupied with his Girlfriend.
I do have some people I could turn to if I want to put my trust in them.
But I can't bring myself to do ir because they don't trust me.
I don't see things the way many people do.
So sometimes,it's hard for me to agree with everyone.
I also realised that I look for him every single second that I'm nt aware that I'm searching for him.
I'm a failure and I don't really have much experience to deal with it.
I'm thankful to those who tried to cheer me up today and those who did.
And thanks shermain and Shawn, for keeping me distracted. (:
Thx Limmin and XingLing (:
Thx Jing Ying (: