Today kinda sucked.
Kinda have a cold.
I was so sleepy...
Sigh, Back to being single!
hahaha :):):)

So many many things have happened.
May May May. . .
You simply suck,
I don't like being alone at all.
Recently, no not recently.
It's been quite a while that I'm being ignored by many many people.
I feel insignificant.
I feel fake.
I feel like I have no one.
I just have to live with it.
I keep surprising myself.
I keep doing the unexpected.
I can't understand why I'm being this way.
Why can't I stop acting like everything is fine when it's not.
Why can't I solve my own problem before solving other's?
I'm starting to hate myself.
I should meet someone that can make me feel special and secure.
I hope I will. I'm sure I will, someday in future.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I"M GROWING TRIPLE EYELID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate it. looks so wierd. ):
sigh...
I got nth to say today.
Just the triple eyelid thing XD

I don't want me to be just another girl.
I don't want us to be just another story.
I can see that you ain't focusing on me.
I dun wanna think abt this.


Today is just another typical day.
I want to get away from this stupid stuck up life.
I want to escape from reality.
I want to feel special.
All I can feel now is lust.
Everyone's the same,
guys, guys , guys.
even you are like that.
I just want to feel secure for once in my lifetime.
I have felt special but never secure.
I always wander, "do you do this with other girls too?"
hahaha, I know my looks aren't that special.
sigh. . . I can't help it.
I'm feeling this way again.
It's ok.
Since it's this way.
I'll live my life in a carefree way.
I won't fail to laugh again.
even in your presence.
ok, I guess I am paranoid,
I had this dream of you and her,
walking hand in hand.
It tormented me.
but , hahaha, I waved and smiled at you although tears are sliding down my cheeks.
I really am thinking too much.

I SO FRAGGING WANT TO SCREAM!!!
my heart out so that I dun have to breathe anymore.
so that I dun have to face my life in misery.
Mom, can you be more realistic and see the world in the way we youngsters see?
You want your privacy, I gave you.
I want my privacy, you don't want to let me have.
Is that fair?
I know life is not fair but I'm sure you don't want grandma to know abt some stuffs right?
what is your problem?
I understand you want things for my best.
but you have to understand that I want to little peace.
A place to escape reality.
I don't have anything and can you don't take away the little space I have now?
Can you don't take away the few friends I have now?
Mom, you don't understand, You don't

lol. . .
I kana caught by mommy. . .
sigh....
she still want to check...

I'm such a push over.
I hate it when I can't say "No"
sigh, I'm going to my private blog to write now. bye bye

Finally

Ok, after so long I'm going to update!
I had fun last week when I met Maen and Esther!
haha, Maen was like, "don't talk like gangster can or not?"
haha, I was like, "why not?"
lol, Esther and i were ganging up on him.
we were like teasing him and he was like, "this is the last time i'm gonna let u 2 see each other"
hahaha, so funny, at first we were at BHPS
We were criticizing the new uniform
haha, we were saying "I'll never say this is my sch again"
hahaha, then we went to novena Square and sat at KFC.
They were lovey dovey!
lol, very sian lae.
haha, Sch went on as usual.
Yesterday I went to causeway to study with Catherine and Huang Leng!
I saw Xuan Wei there, but I didn't call him cuz forgot his name XD
haha, next week is MYE alr.
must study hard.
I haven't study a single thing!
Bye!
Love u readers!