it's a new beginning

ks.posting another post again today.
miss my dad man.I miss Mala, Wiwi, Diana, Asmira, Sharfica, Maen, Sky, Lwin, Ryan, Eaint, Thiri, Sweety and Yuzana.
Life just sucks, I feel so sad nowadays, My seating arrangement is not so bad because shawn is actually talkative, hahaha.
I like my maths group,I'v come to a decision. I'm gonna change for the better, Talk less, listen more. Sigh. I just feel so sad. So many reasons. Talked with Mala yesterday. It brings back all the memories. I feel so useless. I feel like shit.
I feel like I aint important to anyone at all. Life is just boring, uneventful. I got stronger, cuz tears can't seem to come out even though I'm so sad. I feel so bad I didn't know HT cried. I feel like I'm useless. I hate my life. Yeah, I know I'm being negative but after I write this down, I'll feel alot better. I'm really optimistic. Dunno what happened to me. I hope my mom and dad don't separate. dad wrote me a letter. Almost cried. I miss him so much man. I want to meet up with my friends soon. They are like the best medicine for me. And I'm greatful to my classmates who have been so good to me, I used to hang out with Jodi only and she treats me like shit.Not that I didn't know but I just feel so useless when I couldn't break away frome this. And I think The incident with Mr Tan also taught me a lesson. " Don't talk so much" I really didn't want to cry that day. I wish I didn't. I hadn't cried for 3 yrs that time. I couldn't control my tears again when Mrs Eng scolded me. I feel sorry for Adam who cried because of me. I feel that every thing I've done is a mistake. Next time, I'll stop being so rash-mouthed. I hate it when I regret cux I know what's done cannot be undone.I wish my life would get better.