futile attempts ;

It's useless. . .
with this family, it's useless.
I don't live with a family,
I live in a hell hole.
I hate this.
They say I'm a jinx.
I'm the cause of their misery.
that explains alot about their behavior.
what a fool i was.
but still, i'll owe them nothing.
i will start to be mature because I have to be
right now, from now....


I shall paste a fake smile on my lips everyday,
cry silently in my pillow every night.
this is what my life is going to be...
saints, help me through this. . .