say, what should i be doing instead

it is dark.
i cant find a way out.
anger seeps in and swallowed me whole.
i felt empty. and sad.
everyday it's just like that.
i keep pretending that i'm happy and content.
but in truth, i feel hollow and unhappy inside.
I want to be happy but i'm sinking deeper into this depression yet again.
I tried . Put in effort but nothing. Nothing can get me out of this mess.
No one. No one will come to my side and hold me real tight and tell me that everything is just gonna be alright.