sweetest }♥

i was so happy. what ever happened?

A picture tell a thousand wordsSolitary

ok. it's 1:09 am and i still haven't finished what i am supposed to.
there are quite a number of things going on in my life right now and i'm coping (: hopefully, well.
but, yeah, I'm still surviving. I've been lacking rest for 2 months now and i'm amazed i am still going.
oh well, going but not too great. I'm almost done with AEM and SL but I needed a break, to let out the steam.yes, to complain. I'm super duper tired. i slept at 2 last night and the night before at 1 and the night before that. i've been working everyday like no body's business[it's mine actually] and i'm fragging lonely. I NEED STH , i don't know what but something.
next, I'm confused. I'm freaking fragging tired of being the giver. Giving my all until i've nothing left. NOTHING. I HATE AWKWARD SILENCES , AWKWARD EYE CONTACTS AND UNANSWERED PHONE CALLS!!! and i'm absolutely tired and sick of being jealous. i need to concentrate which i'm not doing now and which i'm going back to it soon. Oh, by the way, did i tell you all that I have AEM written test , presentation, appointment with VP of MINDS and work>? i figured i didn;t (: well, good luck for me because what I just said didn't make any sense

no matter what comes my way

I swear I'll get over you, painful or not

AEM today was so funnnnnnnnnnnn XD.
We were redoing and redoing the experiment and XL was scolding me like mad.

XL : MAY!!! you're distracted ah?! faster! concentrate!
Me: hahaha, ya, sorry XD *laugh sheepishly*

hahahah, LOL. anyway, we got results and were so tired on the way back home.
& the MRT was so quiet like so wierd o_o
haha, anyway. I went out with my bestest-est XD
pictures on FB.

my new shades XD

my heart goes up,
my heart goes down.
I catch myself looking at him, noticing how mauch he's looking at her.
I try to get his attention, only to realise that his mind is with her.
tis not the first time, nor the second.
this is the third time I'm falling for Mr.Bear.
I hate this... this feeling i get whenever i feel sad.
why do i have to be so weak.
it took me plenty of time to find strength to move on and be filial

why does that hurt so much
i"m always the one person that never fits in.
the one person that is never really accepted
that one person who is always different
the one person who never is known
the one person without love
the one person with all the hurt
the one person who never gets what she wants
the one person who always cries in silence
the one person with a fake smile plastered on her face
the one person seeking love but never getting any
the one person without a father
the one person with all her hurt uncared for
the one person who always had her dearest things snatched away
the one person
who will never find love or comfort
or at least not now or in the near future
I'm so very tired of pretending
tired of being strong
i just want to feel his strong arms embrace me
and cry my heart out

etheral

Today was great (:
I uploaded the pics on fb (: